I find it difficult to explain,
Find it difficult to complain.
It is difficult to elaborate!
Elaborate something that doesn't actually exist.
Although it does EXIST!
But what is better than escaping reality?
Reality, that puts you in situations that can't be explained?
You see, I find it hard to understand people.
I find it hard to help people when they go through tough times.
The type of "times that make everything breakable. Every single word is bigger than the actual WORD.
You see, I really want to help,
But I don't even understand myself nor my mentality nor my problems that might doesn't even exist.
You see over-thinking creates problems that don't even exist.
I've been trying to write for months,
Trying to express my feelings through words!
Feelings that turned out it doesn't even exist!
Trying to write poetry to participate in W&S.
To read it in front of strange people, because they might relate.
Isn't that weird?
I usually talk behind a screen,
Photos are the only way to express my feelings without saying a word.
It expresses unexplained thoughts.
You see, whatever I write doesn't actually represent who I am.
It represents the random thoughts that comes to my mind, that I usually create!
Nobody knows what's in my mind.
Nobody knows how sad I am.
Nobody knows about the difficulties I went through to become this dude.
This dude that knows nothing,
Or maybe nothing is everything he needs to know.
Because being aware of one thing doesn't mean u can control it nor prevent it.
It's an illusion.
But is it?
Or my mind is trying to avoid reality, I mean what's going on right now?
Problems emerging from nowhere.
By nowhere I mean everywhere.
How stupid can I be?
Did I just see what can't be seen?
It's an obvious thing.
Apparently you just need a mirror. Why?
Because you can see yourself there,
Because you are the one who made all of this!
Although you are aware of it, doesn't mean you can control it nor prevent it.
Not Today. Tomorrow
In other words not today nor tomorrow NEVER!
BECAUSE CHANGE TAKES TIME
AND BY TIME I MEAN EFFORT
AND TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT EFFORT IT WILL TAKE MORE TIME.
WHICH MEANS IT TAKES MORE TIME.
2x the actual time.
Most of the people will say, "because that's how life works, Ahmed."
But that isn't considered an answer!
An answer that will fulfill my curiosity! Not really
It's been about 2 months since I graduated high school.
And what have I done? Nothing
Nothing is actually nothing over here, zero.
I froze my mind. I thought I'm a genius so I stopped overthinking, and I stopped learning new things.
People used to compliment my work a lot.
And I was too dumb to stop there!
But where did I stop?
Or did I actually stop? I guess not. I'm never going to stop.
Random thoughts are always coming to my mind
Which means I'm gonna write more!
Which means I'm gonna stand over here again reading what i have written to strange people that might relate
Isn't that beautiful? Honestly, I can't tell. and I would never be able to know. Supergood and
THANK YOU bye
Which means I'm gonna stand over here again reading what i have written to strange people that might relateIsn't that beautiful? Honestly, I can't tell.