On sunny days like today,
I wonder why you feel blue
Blue.
Like a summer’s morning sky
Like the open oceans under sunlight
I wonder why you can’t feel all colors of the rainbow that arches over our heads
You try to explain it to me,
But your words are clinging to your tongue
And I’m not patient enough to even notice that you’re trying
Crying – you were crying for help
But how could the eyes see when the mind is blind?
When the heart is tied
To the mirage of a perfect life it cannot find
On cloudy days like today,
Trees stand naked at the whims of wind
I wonder why you can’t feel green instead
Fall wraps earth from roots to the stem
You fall asleep more now
Actually, you often oversleep,
And I keep tugging at your blanket of emotions
I’m lonely, would you let me in?
But most nights you’re sleepless
Chasing demons of anxiety and fear off your bed
On rainy days like today,
You seem to be drowning your sorrow in your own tears
It is you who’s drowning from within
You don’t know how to swim
I feel you slipping through my hands
No matter how hard I lock my fingers
On days like today,
My faith swings back and forth
Your face is clouded with stress and suicidal thoughts
I’m scared of not knowing what to do
Paranoia nested in the creases of my skin
I’m even more scared of losing you
On days like today,
Depression wins.